The past couple weeks have given me some time to read from some spiritual classics. The art of slowing down in the world so busy with activities, work, family, and perhaps the most insidious thief of our time – entertainment!
I read this from Thomas Merton this week: “There is one condition if you desire intimate union with God, you must be willing to pay the price for it. The price is small enough. In fact, it is not even a price at all: it only seems to be so with us. We find it difficult to give up our desire for things that can never satisfy us in exchange for the One Good in Whom we find all of our joy – and, moreover, we get back everything else we have renounced besides!”
Thomas Merton is talking about the secrets of contemplative prayer. Contemplative prayer is a gift to connect us with the pure and perfect love of God – the only gift that can truly make us happy. Psalms 1 emphasizes true and lasting delight doesn’t come from our success, our fun, our financial security, or the many other things which drive us so. Happiness, healing, and peace all come from the same source. But there are so many Christians that “have practically no idea of the immense love of God for them, and of the power of that love to do them good, to bring them happiness.”
Although I love God, and I want to be happy, when I step back and look at my life this past year there were many times that I lived more like “chaff that the wind drives away.” I was not anchored in God’s love. Don’t get me wrong, I love God and that love was the what drove me to serve and sacrifice for his kingdom. But when all that work, albeit good, begins to drive you – It becomes destructive. It becomes the wind that drives your soul away from God.
Merton goes on to say this: “The fact remains that contemplation will not be given to those who willfully remain at a distance from God, who confine their interior life to a few routine exercises of piety and a few external acts of worship and service performed as a matter of duty. Such people are careful to avoid sin. They respect God as a Master. But their heart does not belong to him. They are not really interested in him, except in order to ensure themselves against losing heaven and going to hell. In actual practice, their minds and hearts are taken up with their own ambitions and troubles and comforts and pleasures and all their worldly interests and anxieties and fears. God is only invited to enter this charmed circle to smooth out difficulties and to dispense rewards.”
Ouch. I think we all wish that we could say that was never us, but at times all of us find ourselves guilty as charged. and so I continue to seek a new life that is satisfied only when I find myself in his presence, anchored in his love. No longer driven by performance, by rewards, by what people think, but rather only by this one single thought: that I might rest and be found in his love. I believe when I discover how to rest in his love – I will have something worth giving away to those who don’t know Him and to those who do.
















Heidi Willis